Why Does It Always Rain on Me?

After ingesting a pot brownie, that I somehow managed to purchase at Wendy's, I found myself sitting in my apartment until almost 7am sharing all my life with someone that I really don't know that well. Oddly enough, the weirdest thing about the situation was that I was eating Wendy's. I have a tendency to share too much, or just rattle off at the mouth. I don't even really see an issue with that, for the most part I think I'm pretty interesting. Or that i at least have some sort of story telling capability. "If you could have any super power, what would it be?" Did I answer "story telling capability"? If so, perhaps it is a weak power, or I need an editor.

Further along in the evening/early morning I was told that a song called "Why Does it Always Rain on Me" is "my song". Having actually known what this song was, I found myself being slightly offended, but then just laughed. In the actually amount of time that this person has known me, I have felt that it was constantly raining on me. I've been beating myself up and I've been depressed. This isn't something new to me, and therefore I just take it in stride. I know it will pass, and I don't notice what I project to other people for the most. Mainly I'm sure because I'm too busy locking myself away in my head.

Of course I listened to the song again and it made me laugh even harder. "Why does it always rain on me, is it because I lied when I was seventeen". I am CONSTANTLY looking for a reason for every little thing that happens in my life. I think life is a little more random then that, but maybe it is all pre-calculated? I don't know if I believe in "roots", but there is a constant cause and effect for life.

Here is the video and the lyrics.

P.S. I recently was having an amazing dinner with two of my friends up in Harlem. We were talking about how when you are growing up your parents say things like, "If you think you have it bad now, just wait until you're an adult." Fuck that, being a kid was rough, I enjoy being an "adult".



Travis
Why Does It Always Rain On Me?

I can't sleep tonight
Everybody saying everything's alright
Still I can't close my eyes
I'm seeing a tunnel at the end of all these lights

Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I can't avoid the lightning

I can't stand myself
I'm being held up by an invisible man
Still life on a shelf when
I got my mind on something else

Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong
Why does it always rain on me?
[ Travis Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I can't avoid the lightning

Oh, where did the blue skies go?
And why is it raining so?
It's so cold
I can't sleep tonight
Everybody's saying everything's all right
Still I can't close my eyes
I'm seeing a tunnel at the end of the lights

Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Even when the sun is shining
I can't avoid the lightning
Oh, where did the blue skies go?
And why is it raining so?
It's so cold
Why does it always rain on me?
Why does it always rain on....