The Smashing Pumpkins

Last Thursday on the 6th, I went to see the Smashing Pumpkins at United Palace Theater. It has to have been possibly the best concert I've ever been to. It even beats out Alanis concerts for the title. In fact, for the most part, everything about the entire evening seemed magical. Our tickets ended up being front row, I initially thought they were 2nd, not that there is a huge difference. I threw my hands in the air, danced, and screamed along at the top of my lungs. It was amazing. It was beautiful. I felt free for 2-3 hours. Free of everything that I some times think is holding me down. It was as if I were floating above my head instead of stuck inside. There are moments where I blast music so loud in my ears that it unlocks the cage and I am free to run and play. This is one of those moments. I don't even remember every song they played, but I moved to every beat as if my soul needed it to survive, and maybe it did. I love going to concerts, there is something in the energy that surrounds you. It is inexplainable, and impossible to create alone. I went with a friend, for lack of a better term, and he was perfect to have been there. Afterwords we sipped champagne at a dinner, the best 4 dollar champagne in the city.

I think what I'm learning from this experience, or at least trying to take away from it, is that even when life shits on your head, you can't forget everything. Maybe you can be "in the moment" and still not forget about all the "moments" before?

Below is what I consider to be my favorite Smashing Pumpkins song. I listen to it almost every single day, at least of recently I have. It's from the mid nineties, a b-side on the 1979 single. "Set the Ray to Jerry"



Born to please, every simple need
I stand alone in my thoughts indeed
Hate you
For ever making me
I'm in you, I'm your anything

And I- want you
And I- need you
And all you are is brand new
And I- need you

Come to me, let me hold you still
I'm so tired, just as tired as you
Take me for anyone but me
All that you feel is never true

And I- want you
And I- need you
And all you are is brand new
And I- need you

When you say that you are
Forever my star
I'll never let you go, no, no
I'll never let you know

Let roar these fears
To the whore of my tears
Pure as a lie, I pour to your eyes
Suck you like the sap from a tree
Honey from the dew, from the bumblebees, yeah yeah

And I- want you
And I- need you
And all you are is brand new
And I- need you

When you say that you are
Forever my star
I'll never let you go, no, no
I'll never let you know

And I- want you
And I- need you
And all you are is brand new
'Cause- need you